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Here I Am

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While on my way to a meeting today, I found myself crying alone in the car. Twice.

The first time was because I was feeling really exhausted. Physically and emotionally. I felt so undervalued this entire week- like nothing was going right anymore. You see, on the surface, people are led into believing that I've really got it together. I can hold my own now, after all. But I felt really broken inside. So angry, so hurt and easily irritated at the most random things. I felt so unappreciated and so unloved. Over the course of the week, I managed to re-learn feeling insecure again. Maybe it's because it's come to a point wherein I've stayed away from people long enough to feel socially awkward around others. I felt like I couldn't get along with anyone. Not my parents. Or my friends. I felt like I was burning more bridges than I was building them. I hated how I couldn't have control for a lot of things in my life and that really, REALLY scared me.

"Lord. What am I doing? Why am I here?"
"Does anyone understand?"

And then He spoke.
"Where are you?"

He already knew the answer. It wasn't a question; it was a reminder. A reminder of who I am. What I am to Him. He was looking for me. I mattered to Him. In His eyes, I'm important. And that's really all I'll ever need and should ever want. Why did I digress from what was already laid out before me? What else could I possibly want more than being on the Winning Side?

And then, something: An embrace. An act of kindness. Soft words. An unexpected gift. A challenge. Call to action-- every single possible thing He knew would speak to my heart, God granted it to me. Another reminder.

" For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly." PS 84:11

"Stick to the Plan. I got this." He tugs on my heart strings.

I was left in awe and embarrassed at my ignorance. And yet, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace.

You probably already know what happens next. It's the only obvious response: I found myself in tears, again. :)

Lost At Sea

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It’s easy to believe you’re in the center of God’s will when everything is going well for you. It’s a trap we all fall for: thinking that you have it all figured out when things are right in the world. But it’s not so easy to trust Him when the storms come in. Faith is a funny thing. It ushers you to keep dreaming, hoping that the best is yet to come, even when that best is nowhere in sight.

I often fail to remember that my God who calms my storms with only a word is the same God who summons them in the same breath. I also fail to remember that He’s there with me in the boat the whole time. (Matthew 8:23-27) In fact, He even lives inside me. My God is all around and He is in perfect control. Why am I so worried then?

We’re all probably going through our own storms at the moment. Some have bigger ones than others. The storm in my heart struggles to accept things the way they currently are. Have you ever felt like your heart was lost at sea? Stuck in the middle of nowhere, constantly looking back to measure how far off from the shore you are, but still hoping you catch a glimpse of your destination some time soon? And like a child, constantly asking- "are we there yet?". It's taking a while; you grow impatient. Can't this thing go any faster?

Newsflash: when you’re the captain of your soul, you end up sinking the ship. Let Him steer.

Review: Garnier Lightening Peel-Off Mask

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Howdy everyone!

Been trying out some new products lately and I thought I'd do a review on the Garnier Lightening Peel-Off Mask. I've seen it out in the market for about a few months now, but only got to try it some time last week. :)

I don't do a lot of reviews, mind you - because this isn't really a beauty blog per se. But since I'm a makeup junkie/enthusiast of sorts, I guess it wouldn't hurt to fill you in on some of the things I've had my eye on for awhile.

So, as they say: LET'S GET STARTED!

My review on the Garnier Lightening Peel-Off Mask

Off the bat - packaging is nice. I like how the layout is really sleek - which is probably the reason why it caught my attention on the shelf. (Plus I LOVE peel-off masks - kind of takes me back to preschool days when I'd slather art glue on my palm, wait for it to dry then peel it off. HAHA! Am I the only weirdo in the room or did anybody else try this?)

It comes in two (2) packs or doses for something close to P50.00 - not half bad, I guess.

So I started out by cleansing with the usual wash and toner - but skipped on the moisturizer for this part. Okay, for this next bit, I'd have to give you a little disclaimer:

You're about to see photos of me WITHOUT ANY MAKEUP - haha! Plus i'm in my pambahay so excuse my disheveled looking self:

1. Start with a clean face
Haha there you go! So after patting my face dry, it was time to open the pack! You only need one for each application.

I didn't think the product would look and feel so gooey, so when I cut it open - I was super surprised to have some of the product spill out! Luckily, I didn't make that much of a mess, but I guess next time, I'd make sure to squeeze some of the product downward, into the pack so this mishap wouldn't happen again. :)

I pour some onto my fingers to get ready for application - it's super slimy and sticky! And it's the runny-slimy kind (not firm) so it kind of glides off your fingers if you aren't quick about it. But the plus side is that it smells really nice, like lemons! I wouldn't be surprised though since Garnier has a whole range of products enfused with Pure Lemon Essence and Salicylic Acids which help brighten the complexion and get rid of impurities in the skin. :)

As I would any mask or pack, I applied the product with two fingers, onto my face. Making sure to steer clear from the eye area. I also made sure to apply this on the bridge of my nose as well as under and on the sides of it - since I usually get redness on these areas. The instructions say to apply this thinly and evenly - which makes sense, because the mask feels a bit heavy on the skin when first applied and wet.

On the packaging, it says to leave it on for 15 minutes, but I noticed that even after the time indicated, some parts of my face weren't fully dry yet. I gave it 5 minutes more to allow some of it to set.

After around a total of 25 minutes, it was finally time for the fun part! The peeling! :)

There was still some residue/left over product on my skin after I peeled everything off, but it was nothing some warm water couldn't fix. When I finally allowed my face to dry, I saw a few noticable changes:

Some of my dark spots on my forehead and chin seemed to have diminished! I mean, of course they're not totally gone - but I do notice that it became lighter after using the pack. Also, my face felt like it was lifted from whatever made it feel heavy prior to putting on the mask. My complexion also seemed to have become brighter and more evened-out.

I used the 2nd pack about 5 days after the first one and as of today, my dark spots are close to invisible now. I think all in all, I could give this product a 4.5/5 rating - super impressed with it's effectiveness and all. I guess my only downside to it would be how runny and how heavy the product is, but it's not a total killer, I guess.

I hope you guys enjoyed this review! I think this is 1st time I've ever done one! If you liked it, please let me know if you'd like me to do more - I'd also appreciate it if you could recommend some products I should try out and review also. :)


You Complete Me: Wondering Wednesday 03

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I think it would only be appropriate to begin with an update on TVOTP, since there was so much drama which happened on the last episode. In case you guys didn't catch it over the weekend, we're down to the last few blind auditions for the season. Plus, we revealed a SUPER BIG TWIST to the game. I know we said that there will only be 12 members in each- but instead, the coaches get 13 members for their respective teams! How crazy is that? :)

Now the big question is: How are The Battles going to play out?

Before anything though, let me try to explain to you guys how the whole show works. I've been an avid follower of The Voice franchise for quite some time now, especially with the success of the US' 4th season - so I guess you can say I'm pretty aware of the concept.

OKAY. Ganito yun. The Voice actually first started out in Holland (named "The Voice of Holland") and is owned and produced by a company called TALPA. Ang TALPA ang may legal rights to franchise the show sa iba't-ibang part ng mundo. Like any other singing competition, of course, the Voice is out there to discover talents in the field of music and singing. But UNLIKE any other singing competition, The Voice is unbiased pag dating sa level of the artists they choose. Dito, it doesn't matter kung 15 years ka nang nasa industry, or baguhan ka lang na kumakanta sa kwarto. The playing field is totally evened-out because initially, artists will be chosen for their voice and unique style. Auditioning for The Voice is no joke. Wala kang makikita na sumali lang kahit na totally talent-less just to get their "15 seconds of fame." The coaches that the show chooses also are some of the best in the industry who have an ear and a heart for untapped talent. So you can only expect a show that is absolutely brimming with talent and class. -with people who share the same passion for music.

As some of you might have noticed, marami-rami na ring mga bansa have taken interest in franchising their own versions of "The Voice" such as Australia, India, Vietnam, The UK and the most popular one yet, The US. Simple lang ang format ng the Voice. Tandaan natin na TVOTP is following THE FIRST SEASON FORMAT - that is, the first season of the ORIGINAL franchise, which is the Voice of Holland. Therefore, may three "levels" lang ang season na ito. (ergo, no Knockouts, no Steals, no Fast-Passes, and no Wild-Cards)

The first, of course is The Blinds, na currently sinusubaybayan ng lahat. Each coach will select their team of 12 (or in our case today, 13) based on the quality of their initial performance. I don't need to explain this further, since after all, ito ang pinaka unique part ng show na alam ng lahat.

The next stage is the Battles. Dito medyo nagbabago ang basehan ng pag-judge. Dahil hindi na lang boses lang ang labanan but being able to totally capture an audience and the coach with a complete performance. Each team will have to face each other off in pairs and at the end of the performance - one goes home while the other moves on to the final stage- THE LIVE SHOWS.

"Pero paano na ngayon yan, na 13 na per team and not 12?" - you might ask. My hints are already  all up there- it's just a matter of doing the math and watching the show to see if your guess is right. ;) hehe.

OKAY! Moving on. Here are my answers for your Wondering Wednesday questions this week:


Anonymous asked:
Kamusta Battle Preps po? Excited na po ba kayo?

Sobrang excited na kinakabahan. Haha matindi ang labanan talaga. Minsan nakaka-drain na rin kasi sunod-sunod talaga taping and preparations. Kaya sabi namin ng fellow contestants ko, dapat baguhin na yung tagline. "Boses ang puhunan, Resistensya ang labanan!" haha! :)

The Debsters asked:
Where should you never take a first date?

Honestly, hindi ko alam hahaha! I've never been the type to give dating advice. And I think it depends on the person naman rin. If you're asking about my preference, I'm really not sure. I'd like to think I'm an adventurous person who likes just about anything. :)) Once there was this guy who "took me out" pero sa kabilang dulo ng campus lang - which I didn't mind, because honestly I've never been to that end of the campus. I'm so babaw when it comes to dates, I swear I don't even know that I'm actually in one. HAHA.

Anonymous asked:
Best watched movie so far?

Hirap nito! Uh, Despicable Me 2? :)) I recently watched this movie called "Movie 43" - it was crazy stupid, (and I'm telling you, it's super stupid) but I kept laughing 'til my jaw fell off. HAHA! If you're going for all-time, best watched film though, you'd be surprised, since I have a lot: One of them is this horror spanish film called [REC] - where the movie "Quarantine" was based from. Sa drama naman, I super love this Korean Film called "A Moment To Remember" :) (My taste in films are very broad, as you can probably tell :p)

You know what movie I'm actually looking forward to? ENDER'S GAME - look it up.

Anonymous asked:
Do you have a boyfriend right now? If none, how many ex-boyfriends?

No boyfriend right now, but I do have a suitor. Haha! Technically - I don't really "have" an ex-boyfriend, since the relationships I've been in, we were never really "boyfriend-girlfriend". But the "official count" is one.


@DebstersGLOBAL asked:
How long has your longest phone call ever been?

Too long to recall. Alam mo yung nag-one hour limit ka na, so the call drops - pero tatawag ka na lang ulit? Haha yon.

Ainne (@theAYEN0193) asked:
Do we become happy only when we meet the one we love?

WOW NAMAN SI ATE GIRL!! SERIOUS! May pinanghuhugutan ba yan? Haha but for you bebe, my answer to your question:

It doesn't have to be that way. There are ways we can be truly happy without "meeting the one we love" just yet. I do believe singleness is a gift. You're only by yourself for just about a quarter of your life anyway. (okay, don't panic kung over a quarter ka na haha may pahabol ako)

If you aren't truly happy with just being yourself right now, what makes us think we'll be happy with someone else later on? I honestly think that our search for "the one" comes from our deep desire to feel validated and to be treated as someone valuable. But here's the truth - you don't need someone in order for you to know that. Your special someone isn't supposed to make you complete- because you ALREADY ARE COMPLETE. You are valuable and precious - as you always have been told from the very beginning. Kaya sometimes I wonder, when did we start thinking that we needed to be with someone to feel like we're worth something in this world? (Only to get disappointed in the end, because it just goes that way when you put two flawed people together...)

Someone finds you valuable and that someone is your Maker. The One who knows you inside and out. When you learn to find yourself - see yourself the way He sees you, that's when I believe you will realize that you CAN experience joy and happiness, even way before you meet your special someone.

Thank you so much for all your questions for Wondering Wednesday! :) Oh, btw - if you guys haven't seen the posts. I will be taking a break from all my social media accounts muna so you might not hear from me until the weekend. :) For any immediate concerns though you guys are free to contact me via email:

On a side note: WOW. Can you actually believe that half the year has gone by? So fast, no? And so many things can happen talaga in 6 months! :) I'm really so thankful that they've been so fruitful so far this year. :)

Alright, that's it! See you guys next week!

Taking Notes: Wondering Wednesdays 02

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Hi everyone!

So much backlog on my Wondering Wednesdays section - so i'll head straight to the questions:


Dabiboy (@dabiboooy) asked:
"Besides American Boy, ano pa balak mong kantahin sana nung Blind Auditions?"

They asked us to send in a list of 5 songs we wanted to sing. Included in my list was Norah Jones' rendition of "The Nearness Of You" and Julianne's "Tulak ng Bibig" (but as you might have watched, there were already 2 contestants who sang the same song haha)

Debsters Forever asked:
"If all three coaches turned, who would you have picked?"

That's a toughie - sobrang taas ng respeto ko sa kanilang lahat. They cut out so many parts doon sa blind audition ko, pero nung nakaharap na silang apat, I had the priviledge of telling the coaches how I really grew up listening to all of them and how their music has really really influenced my taste and singing style today. Siguro if ms. Lea or Sarah turned for me, I would've picked either of them because I used to think that they might understand and help me because they're women and can help me master my instrument. But I don't believe in accidents - perhaps God just really touched the heart of my coach kasi alam niyang ganoon ang mentality ko back then. Each of the coaches have their own visions for the team. They all have different coaching styles and strategies on how they think their team can advance to the finals. Thinking about it now, I couldn't be prouder to be a part of his team - if I could re-do my blind auditions, I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. :)

Krizia Rueka (@kriziarueka) asked:
"If there was a real zombie apocalypse, what would be your preparations?"

Haha that's a question I used to get a lot when I was setting up Outbreak with my friends. Assuming that I knew the impending doom of the zombie apocalypse was soon coming (and if I had no limitations with money or whatnot), sisimulan ko nang mag shooting and gun safety lessons ngayon pa lang. I'd invest in a good and sturdy boat and start stocking up on food and medical supplies in it. I'd make a helipad and invest in a good helicopter - yun ang gagamitin ko papunta ng dock. I'd also probably start building a fort around my home. Kung kaya, gagawin ko yung living quarters underground and may mga secret passages behind the walls. Should anyone seeking shelter find my fort, i'll stock up on candles, food and cozy beds and sound-proof the house and leave a working radio para they can contact people. OHA. EXTENSIVE DIBA? :))

Despicable Z (@iamZHACKI) asked:
"Have you been in (joined) any reality shows TV before The Voice PH (like PBB)?"

No, I have not. Yung huling singing contest na sinalihan ko was when I was in Grade 3. Pero sumasali ako ng mga modeling and photo contests before. Hehe :) But most of it was only internet-based and required voting lang.


Melanie Lim asked:
"So what's it like taking notes from Bamboo himself?"

THE BEST. I'm not simply saying this because I'm on his team and I sound biased, but he really, truly is the nicest guy around. He really speaks from his heart and wants the best for his team. He always keeps telling us, "outside of this competition, if you need anything -give me a call" - because when he has a vision for you, he'll really stick to it  It's really so humbling to be mentored by someone like him. I thank God everyday that he turned his chair for me. I wish I could say more, but I might end up sounding like some deranged fan girl. Hahah :)) But seriously speaking, I really do think I am in the right team and I have the best coach.


Vincent Laureta asked:
"What can you say about your experience on [OutbreakManila] 4.14.12?"

Hahaha the question sounds a little too broad, if you ask me. I didn't even run - heck, I never even got to leave the activity area. It was great though, all the running around, sweat, tears and the unwanted tan paid off in the end. We got to set up the most anticipated zombie running event this country has ever seen. We received such a great response from people here and abroad. We faced a lot of competitors in the long run, but in the end, The Outbreak stood tall. It was an awesome experience. - I heard from my former partner that he recently received an award for our first Outbreak. ("Break-out event of 2012" is what they called it I think) :)

You can read more about my adventures on planning the whole thing in this post.

Anonymous asked:
"Do you have a girl crush?"

I kinda don't have a lot - oh wait, I'm not sure if I have any at all. HAHA :| Most of the girl crushes I get kasi are like a spur of the moment kinda thing. Like, I'm browsing through a magazine or watching a show or talking with a friend then I just spontaneously blurt it out. :)) But I don't really dwell on it? IDK. Haha :)


and that's it for this round of #WonderingWednesday! Remember, if' you'd like to ask me a question you may leave a comment on this blog post or get in touch with me through my official Twitter or Facebook accounts! :) Don't forget to include #WonderingWednesday and #askDebVicta :)

Thanks for the questions guys. They were fun! :) 'Til next time!

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